Wednesday, 15 April 2009

no food since monday =]

i can actually do this!!!
i havent eaten since monday afternoon n even that was abit of salad
n yno wht it aint even tht difficult, i dnt feel that hungry.. :)
my belly keeps rumbling but i can deal with tht..
i might hav a yohurt or summert l8a but no food again 2day :)
i will loose a stone..
i hate myself atm.. my life is falling apart...
not only am i fat, the one person in the world i thought i cud trust, well i cant anymore :(
iv got nothing else left to loose so if i die doing this
well i dont really give a shit :(
my life is so fucked up...

Tuesday, 7 April 2009

i did well yday =]

i did well yday :)
all i had to eat was a small bowl of spagetti bolognase and i didnt eat all of that =]
hopefully today will be the same, im only going to try eating a sandwich
i still feel very fat tho, i no i need to get bk to how i was ages ago
i slipped n had loads of meals in a day n now my body gets really hungry quickly
im trying to ignore it atm but its really hard

Monday, 6 April 2009

i feel fat 2day :(

Its nearly the summer n i feel really fat. a yr ago i was 7stone3 ish, now im 8stone6!
cnt believ iv put on tht much weight!!
drastic dieting needeed!!
a yr ago i only ate a small meal a day, something like a bowl of rice or noodles, now im eatin double tht!
wen i look in the mirror all i see is a fat ugly monster starin bk at me,
its tru wht thy say "a moment on the lips forever on the hips"
mine hav got massiv!!
i look at other girls, how thin thy are and think i wish i was like tht, its not as thou i eat much tho, you are ment to hav 3meals a day, i hav one big one, grrr why cant i be one of those ppl tht can eat wht thy like n still be thin??